Tuesday, 1 December 2015

In loving memory, great-grandmother

I know i'm the luckiest person on earth because i get to see and know my great-grandparents so well. I'm sure that only few of us get the chance to see and meet their moyang as they're growing up.  For me its truly a bless to met them in my life. I even get the chance to take care of them when they're sick. I thank to God for this memories He gave to me and i couldn't ask for more than this. 

I lost my great-grandfather back in when i was in form 3 (2011) and after a few years my great-grandmother passed away too (28th of November 2015). 

I felt so bad now bcause i don't get the chance to pay the last respect for her today because of my final exam. Only God knows how i felt.  I cried and hide everything inside me. Goshh i feel so bad now for not being able to attend it. I pray that Jesus will always be with her and my great-grandfather. I shouldnt even be sad bcause finally for after being thru hard Moments in life both of them can meet in heaven now. I really miss my aki and odu.  

May their soul rest in peace. Amen 🙏

Monday, 9 November 2015

Life's hard.

Hi readers :')
So how was your day huh? Is it yay or nah? Mine was nah. Everytime.

Life's pretty hard, right? I just don't know why my life turns out to be like this. Can i just be a little girl forever? I'm so tired with life. Everything seems not right at all. I mean my studies, my relationship, my feelings... It's all turns out to be upside down. 

I really miss the old me. The one who reads books. The one who never even know how heartbroken was. The one who busy on maintaing her grade in school. I felt like i'm the other person now. Not the same Cassandra anymore. Can't lie that i'm growing up too fast as i need to pass all these shit things in life. 

I care too much over someone that does not even appreciate my exist. I love people that never love as much as i love them. I trust people with all my heart and they ended up broke it. You see right? Everyday is like a struggle for me to live. 

Sometimes i just hope that i can be heartless so i will never feel anything that makes me hurt. My relationship turns upside down. It's our second years now but idk. should not feel this way but thats the truth. Everything is so diffrent now. 

I should stop writing this. It's make me want to cry even more. I really need someone's shoulder now. Bye